the day

i could not believe

it was no longer
mine
scattered , heavy, unexplainable
thoughts.
never

thought
it
would

really

happen.
no one got along 

that day.
slamming doors loud voices
confusion and pain
18 years of memories
too many friends
too many drinks
too much love
to just be left
with out the solid goodbye

i wished my family and i shared.
the first return was my
last
boring, plain, no character
stranger
almost
mixed emotion
resentment